Old Haunts

Hasn't it ever been the eventful week?



A long conversation with M early in the week has us conspiring to find ways to make her feel better. We're trying a daily email in which she tells me three ways in which the day just finished doesn't completely suck. She thinks it'll be very hard and yet every day this week she has found the required three things. I love seeing her list because she's finding pleasure in relatively small things - and I think that's important.

Then lino was fitted in the downstairs hallway. This is a good thing, isn't it? Well, yes but Tuesday night still finds me in a metaphorical crumpled heap sobbing in a way I haven't for a couple of years. I mean, WTF?

Yesterday I travel to Leeds for the day so that my cousin and her daughter can see the university. It's Idiot Boy's Alma Mater and I think it'll be nice to reacquaint myself with the place. Oh how wrong can I be?

The city itself stirred up enough ghosts and then a visit to the students' union pretty much did for me, since it hasn't changed one iota in the 24 years since I went there on our "first date" to see George Melly.

A telephone message from my elderly ma saying she's got to have more medical treatment than expected was just about the seal on things for the suckiest day for a while...

Then an exchange of text messages with a pal has me weeping...this time with tears of laughter. The memory of it this morning made me wake with a daft grin on my face, having slept exceptionally well.

So with mood much improved I let the lino guy back in to finish the job - now the lino's all good. No reservations.

Seeing TD get stuck enthusiastically into our latest website rewrite and sound upbeat is uplifting in itself.

The icing on the cake is going to help some friends hang an exhibition and playing silly games with my friend's two-year old daughter, C.

It's funny how relatively small things serve to cheer so much in the face of something that yesterday seemed insurmountable.

So thank you TD for continuing to inpsire, thanks M for sharing with me the good things, thanks C for giggling and greeting me with such enthusiasm today...and thanks to S and your silly new phone.

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